I have taken the last 2 days off from microdosing as I have been sick with a cold. I am still noticing differences though. I am frustrated with myself. I want to be healthy and normal. I want to be a fully functioning contributing member of our society. I am still hypercritical of myself, but I continue to not be suicidal. My thoughts are not as dark as they were prior to beginning this new round of microdosing, but I also am aware now I have a long way to go.

I want to scream! I want to run away! I want to have a life! I want to let go of all my hurt and anger that holds me back. I want to stop isolating myself and I want to want to live! Hopefully I will feel better in a couple of days and keep on continuing my journey.