I want to do it today. Oh how very very much I want to complete it. I could easily make it happen. I just have to figure out what to do with my damn dogs for the night!

I guess they will be okay in the house by themselves for one night and the day tomorrow, which means I can go somewhere and do it. I’d like to go to a nice hotel room and do it that way so no one finds my body in the house.

Yes, that sounds nice.

I hope my boys will be okay. I imagine in the end they will blame and hate me, like everyone else does already. But I don’t give a fuck about any of them. I’m going to miss my damn dogs! I tried my fucking best. People are fucking assholes. Stop blaming others all the damn time! Everyone is just trying to get by. This world isn’t worth it.