I need help. I have options, but I need help. I cannot free myself from my mind. I promised my youngest son I am okay now and he never has to worry about mommy being depressed again, but I’m depressed. I am lonely and I am depressed. I hate myself and I don’t know how to change that. I don’t know how to maintain. It’s just a moment. I have to keep reminding myself that it is just a moment. Tomorrow night we will be on a plane to Chicago. Things will fall into place. I will get the house sold. I will move. I will start the next chapter of my life. I can do this!