Finding a way I personally can cope with life… Is it even possible? It is time for me to make sacrifices. There is a different tyep of life out there. A life where your partner communicates with you and you communicate with them. There is honesty and openness out there. Trust and respect. Someone who is like me but different. I am so useless. Empty. A failure through and through. Not feeling sorry for myself in this. I tried the whole believing in myself thing, but I can’t keep things from falling apart. I want to complete suicide, but I can’t. Yet I still might.