At the airport about to board the first flight of my journey. I am terrified! My anxiety is beyond measure. Avoiding getting on the plane until the last possible minute. I am texting with the kids and that is helping. I promised a friend I would do a video diary and send to him every few days. That felt good. Why can’t I be normal though? Seriously! I truly hope this helps me and is life changing. I need to be here for my kids, but I can’t live this way anymore. Slowly calming down. I got this! Somehow I got this…