Peru is off the table and I am giving up. I know I said I would give my all until August/September, but there is no point. I’ve been trying to fix me for my entire adult life. All I have done is fail. I know I sound whiney. I know I should just “toughen up and get it together”. Believe me, I try to stop my brain. I try to come up with solutions and ways to get me out of this situation and living life again. I try positive thinking and changing my mind set. I really should not exist.