Time is going quickly and I am determined to change my life before August. I have always known I was severely depressed, but I didn’t really think about what my life could be if I wasn’t depressed. Struggling with the EBV doesn’t help. The fatigue and lack of energy adds an additional hurdle. I see now though how much my kids and loved ones are affected by me not being fully alive. On Monday I see the doctor. I am going to get on medication. I am also going to continue working on loving myself. This week I will decide on Peru and book my trip. Perhaps it will change everything, perhaps it will change nothing. Perhaps it will give me the motivation to take the initiative to change my life. I’m not lazy or worthless. I am depressed and I am sick. I can fight this!