I’m just ready for it to be over. I actually had a good day today. The only reason I stay with him is so I’m not destitute. I am so disappointed in myself for staying with him, going back over and over again over the years. I am miserably unhappy being with him. I can’t even have a conversation with him without him saying something that make me never want to speak again. When I am away from him I begin to talk more.i wish he would just fucking disappear! But really I just need to get myself together so I won’t need him in my life at all anymore. I am so stupid! He is doing it again because I asked him not to clean our son’s room at 10:30 at night when he should be going to sleep. And he went off on my because I told him to leave me alone after he blamed me for starting something in front of our son. All I want is for him to be out of my life for good.