Kill yourself. Kill your self. Kill yourself. Failure. Fuck up. You’ve made every bad decision possible in your life. Your kids are older now and are better off being raised by their fathers. It will probably make them stronger. Your daughter hates you and that hurts you, but she has a better life without you in it. She was better off living with her dad. She has a real family in his family. I want to stay with him for Cristian, but I can’t. Is it him? Is it my depression? Am I truly worthless? I want the thoughts in my head to stop. I want to be able to function and not feel this way everyday. I want to just end it and be done.