I saw my doctor yesterday. She is aware of my plan for next August. She has told me I need to try give 100% and try every option available until that date comes. I agreed. She also wants to focus on aggressively testing my chronic EBV. She doesn’t believe we can truly fight my mental health issues without first addressing my physical health. I have begun a new supplement regimen starting with Monolaurin, Olive Leaf, and Elderberry. This morning for breakfast I had a farm fresh egg, red potatoes, avocado, and broccoli. I don’t have the energy to come up with elaborate healthy meals, but I can throw some basics together for a healthy and satisfying treat.

I am feeling a bit relieved as my doctor said my EBV numbers mean the virus is running around in my body on crack. That made me laugh! Picturing all the little viruses throughout my body with little crack pipes going crazy. It helped me remind myself to stop beating myself up and telling myself I am lazy.

But it doesn’t change the fact that I am poor and need to figure out a way to have an income.