Today I am down again. Perhaps it is because I haven’t been to the gym in 2 Days. Perhaps it is because I have no money to my name. Perhaps it is because I just don’t belong on this earth. I wish I was better able to motivate myself.

I think all in all it is better my daughter doesn’t speak to me. Being around me is not likely healthy for anyone. I just don’t want to be here anymore. It hurts too much.

Damnit! I want this to go away. I want to be normal! I want to be able to focus and be successful and live!