Okay… it’s 9:00 am. Time to get my lazy ass up and getting shit done. Schedule appointments, study, and try to make some money! August 2018 will be here sooner than I know it. There has to be a way for me to be more outgoing and normal! Maybe the answer is medication. Maybe I need to see a doctor, bite the bullet, and accept the side effects.

There is absolutely nothing special about me. But I can replay that in my head over and over, it won’t change anything. I could beat my head against a wall thinking of all I should have been. All the time I’m wasting. All the risks I’m not taking. All the things I’m not doing. I need to push myself more than I ever have.