I find myself too happy when someone speaks to me. I am too isolated and I know this. Now that my youngest son is older it is all the more noticeable. He still comes to me and tells me he is sad sometimes. For now reason at all he says and I understand how he feels. I worry it is my fault and he will turn away from me like his sister did. And I worry it is his dad affecting both of us. But is it better for him to have a toxic father than no father or part time father? His older brother lives with his dad and seems to be doing okay. His grades are awful, but he has never been one to focus on school, and it would most likely be the same if he lived with me. I do t know the answer. But I want my son to be okay.