I think I am going to begin writing only once or twice a week. Or just whenever I get an inkling to write. I am sad again. And cranky this time. I want to run away more than anything! But there are fires across my state and all my hiking spots are engulfed. That makes me very sad. Perhaps I will fly to visit my sister, but probably not. I will most likely wait until my birthday and go on my ten day silent meditation retreat. I hope that helps and I figure out something. I cannot continue living this way.